They say that kids don't really understand the idea of permanence, which is why when we lost [left accidentally] Mae's beloved Kitty on the shuttle after parking our car on the way to the airport in December to LA, I figured she would soon forget about it and develop a fondness for another stuffed animal. I think I said to myself, "She is only 3 years old and stuffed animals are ONLY stuffed animals, she will get over this tomorrow and when we get to Disneyland this will all be forgotten." To even further seal the deal, we bought her a new stuffed animal [Minnie Mouse] at Disney to replace the one lost.
Which is why I am in shock when Mae keeps talking about Kitty and has repeatedly talked about her since December. She talks about how much she misses her and she wants to get her back. She also talks about how sad she is that she no longer has her. Last night after being in bed for about 10 minutes Mae came to the top of the steps. She looked out the window at the top of stairs and talked about the moon and how big and beautiful it was (I love how much she appreciates the beauty of it). Then she went into a five minute diatribe about Kitty. She said she couldn't believe that we left her on the bus. That the next time we go to the airport we will try to find her in "the seat that we left her in." That we must get her back. That she was very sad about leaving Kitty and that "we can't believe we forgot her."
It broke my heart.
I will say it was not intentional that Kitty got left. Traveling with two kids is stressful and my only desire when traveling is to make sure that I actually still have my two kids before getting on the plane - stuffed animals, games, books, food, and other things be damned. I am just trying to get my kids and myself from point A to point B.
I knew Mae had intense emotions but this just reflects how deeply she remembers and cares for the things and people she loves. I don't know what this means in the bigger picture of saying goodbyes, moving, death, missing people and such but I know that my girl is sweet, loving, and dedicated. All things that I am blessed to have in a daughter.
Which is why I am in shock when Mae keeps talking about Kitty and has repeatedly talked about her since December. She talks about how much she misses her and she wants to get her back. She also talks about how sad she is that she no longer has her. Last night after being in bed for about 10 minutes Mae came to the top of the steps. She looked out the window at the top of stairs and talked about the moon and how big and beautiful it was (I love how much she appreciates the beauty of it). Then she went into a five minute diatribe about Kitty. She said she couldn't believe that we left her on the bus. That the next time we go to the airport we will try to find her in "the seat that we left her in." That we must get her back. That she was very sad about leaving Kitty and that "we can't believe we forgot her."
It broke my heart.
I will say it was not intentional that Kitty got left. Traveling with two kids is stressful and my only desire when traveling is to make sure that I actually still have my two kids before getting on the plane - stuffed animals, games, books, food, and other things be damned. I am just trying to get my kids and myself from point A to point B.
I knew Mae had intense emotions but this just reflects how deeply she remembers and cares for the things and people she loves. I don't know what this means in the bigger picture of saying goodbyes, moving, death, missing people and such but I know that my girl is sweet, loving, and dedicated. All things that I am blessed to have in a daughter.
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